My letter. Stay true to it. It's time to begin.

It makes me so sad to know you hate a part of yourself I love so much.

Guys, learn to love yourself.

That's what I wished for this 11.11.

The music: B2ST & Taylor Swift

Just finished a heck load of PD notes so I'm taking a break before doing some English (: There are some things that you just can't say were not meant to happen (translation of yao dee yeah mmm doe nei wah hay mmm jeng deng ga) I believe things happen for a reason and you just have to take them as they come. The universe gives you signs of what's to come or reasons why things have happened and in the end they always make sense. Do you know what to do? (:

Updated my Kpop songs. Now I have 2ne1, miss A, Big Bang's Tonight! (much love. ) and put Change, Don't Go Home and BABY GOOD NIGHT into my Kpop playlist. :) I think my iPod is a very happy chappy this weekend :P

As a blog about the dance & music I must mention the current experience of dance I have! (i.e. Upstaged, Lay and fun and games at dance) There's a sense of contentment when it comes to dance right now. Since Upstaged is coming up, Lay has been a very nice individual to me in front to the other classmates. When it's just us it's a different story, but at least it's some of the time. Asking him to be nice all the time would be pushing my luck :P At least he's capable to being nice if he want to be. I hope that one day Lay learns to appreciate his students as much as they appreciate him. (: And I hope this happens as we get closer to showcase and work hard together!

Whilst on the topic of popping class, I hope the new people who have joined in the last couple of weeks do showcase, too. I mean, Lay isn't exactly a cupcake (W;t reference! :D), but he's a good teacher and based solely on that merit he deserves a class. I'm only going to be there for another couple of months anyways. He's taught me everything I know and I can't be ungrateful for that just because he doesn't like me (:

OKAY. Upstaged. Hopefully I'll get to do WD, LOAM and Lay's. I just have to gather the funds...Doing Lucifer's a little much. I don't have the money LOL Unless I extract it from the Leslie Fund! xD ...wait I forget that that's my money anyway! T^T Haha. But I'll defos get the money for those 3 YEAHHH D: ...beg if I have to. I see another video coming on xD

On the topic of Leslie Funds --> Have not thanked Leslie (Hot Leslie) and Kelvin (&Eggs) for the enjoyable experience they make dance for me. Sure their immaturity gets the better of them sometimes and they never act their own age, but it's nice to not need to be grown up sometimes in public. Sure I do it at school and at dance and at home, but it's different in public. Just a shout out to say I'm glad I met you guys under the conditions that we did because I couldn't imagine any other way we would have been friends.

I will continue to love dance and experience it with different people and different styles (: thanks to everyone for everything so far!

RUN, DEVIL, RUN for your life.

Behave, you're a bad boy more curious than in love
All this time I have been blindly fooled by you
You're no fun, you have no manners you're a devil you are, you are

This post is to ease all the disappointment I have experienced with Lay this week. I used to believe that there was some good to him; that the arrogance was just a front. My misplacement of trust leaves me feeling betrayed and questioning of my own judge of character. I'd always felt that people I had a good feeling about would turn out to be good people despite who they seemed to be with others. It was something I'd always felt so sure of myself about, but after finding out what type of person Lay is, I'm not so sure any more.

I'll come back even better and I'll get revenge. Don't forget it.
You better run, run, run, run, run...
You're caught red handed, you provoked me
Run devil devil run, run

My admiration for Lay's popping skills really clouded my best judgement. I placed trust in Lay that someone so great at something couldn't possibly be so terrible. Perhaps since someone as amateur as me has placed dance as something so much more than a tool to impress, I would have expected more from the teacher than the student. There are so many people I hold in the same light as Lay because of their dancing skills. Have I jumped to quickly into the conclusion that they are good people? Are these people what they seem for the merit people they are good to give them?


I always knew you were a bad boy,
I used to think that it was cool.

Until now I hadn't met someone that was truly bad. Why I was in the shower, I cleared my head and realised something I'd promise myself about dance. One. To dance for love not hate. And two. That I had to pick who was going to lead me to greatness. Even if that person isn't supposed to be Lay, my thought are with him.

You used to be what I would DANCE for,
But then you went and stabbed my heart.

I wished for Lay earlier. Wished that he'd stop being a douche and that he'd be able to see the terrible person he was being. One without bedside manner either. Before this I had wished countlessly that under his guidance I would become someone great. I hoped that he'd change for the better, dance for the better. How much gratitude I had for him, all the good I saw in him, the privilege I felt for him teaching me was all swept clean in one night.

There are so many TEACHERS in this world, so it doesn't matter if you're not there
Until the day I find a TEACHER than ALSO cares for me, I'll wait by myself

I hope that there will be a day these feelings of betrayal can be removed. One day when Lay realises this is not the way to live and learns to dance for love, not approval, or praise or merit. I don't want you to be alone, Lay. Learn to love.